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24 june 2021

i updated a lot of this site. new theming, new organization. there's been a lot of change in my life since writing zero, and yet there's also been not much change in my life at all.

2020 ages all i guess. time is meaningless. einstein just didn't see it coming.

the cool thing is that i'm at a good enough point that i can grow. i'm not stuck in some bad place mentally, physically, emotionally, socially (ok so it's not perfect and i could use a little work on all of those categories but hey i'm still gonna grow regardless.)

basically last year was uh. hell. so i am ready for the next one. as is the case with many others i suppose.

... i took a long pause after writing that. mainly because i pulled an allnighter hyperfocusing on fixing this site, so i'm not exactly a mental powerhouse at the moment. i didn't fix the site out of an uh, ... obligation? to fix it? is that the word? don't know, but it's not why i did it.

i did it because adhd really has been kicking my ass. basically since my sopomore year of high school i've been realizing without a shadow of a doubt that i have some sort of disability in that regard. executive function. what a laboriously commercial and industrial term. i'm waxing poetical, sorry friend.

i kind of always knew. but i also kind of always doubted. didn't believe myself. didn't give myself enough credit? dunno if that's the right way to word that. i'm rambling. death to the golden rule, fnord.

anyways i guess that's that for now. take care of yourself, friend.